My grandma was still living 2 hours away in Myrtle Point, and called often. Still, 7 am was an unusual time for her to call, so when the phone woke me that morning I knew something was wrong. "Turn on your TV." she said, her voice filled with panic.
I only had a 13-inch TV in my room at the time, but the tiny screen conveyed the events clearly. I honestly thought I was watching a Hollywood stunt or something to that effect. Grandma had other family to call, so she hung up with me. I sat in the middle of my bed, huddled up with the covers, watching in a state of shock.
Faith woke up soon after, so I gathered myself and parked her in my bedroom with the TV turned to Nickelodeon. She ended up spending the day in there, eating her meals on my bed to avoid exposing her to the horror.
I didn't have a laptop at the time, and Facebook/MySpace were not in use yet so I signed in to my blog and whatever messenger client I used at the time. I spent the day running between the old office (now Faith's new bedroom) and the living room, trying to figure out what was going on. At first, everyone thought it was a bomb, but once the 2nd plane hit, there was no doubt we were under attack. Then the Pentagon....it was all so surreal. By the end of the day, I was still in pajamas, wandering around the house in a state of shock. I finally explained to Faith what happened, but since she was so young (not yet 6) I don't think she really understood.
It's so strange to look back and realize that all happened 10 years ago. My memory is faulty at best, yet I still remember everything like it was yesterday. So many lives were lost, for nothing more than the religious fervor of a few.
I'll leave you with a post from my old blog. These are my own words, written that day.
Tuesday, September 11, 2001
I'm still in shock. Sitting here, going between the tv in the living room and the many many websites I've been reading...it still doesn't seem real. Watching the plane enter Tower 2....it doesn't look real. It looks like a scene from a movie. I guess our minds can't fathom this kind of heinous act. The people in my area are in a bit of a frenzy...a rumor has gone around about the rise in the cost of groceries and gas so the gas stations and grocery stores are overrun.
The very first thing that came to mind this morning when I saw the towers come down was the movie the Fight Club. For those who haven't seen it...it's about a man whose evil side becomes real to him and he creates a terrorist group which ultimately blows up all the major buildings in New York City. *shudder* I kept seeing those final scenes in the movie where the buildings are going down and realizing how much the movie version looks like the real version.
I hate the things these people have done. I hope they realize that even if they get away with what they've done in this life....what awaits after they die will be their justice. I believe in a merciful and just God...and I don't believe He will allow these people His guidance into the afterlife. I hope these thoughts of a horrible eternal afterlife keep them up at night, because I'm sure no confession, no amount of holy water, and no penance will absolve them of the sins they committed today.